I had 4 beautiful boys.all 4 are in heaven now. The youngest has been gone 5yrs now the other three a little longer ago. This is a wound that will never heal. My heart aches everyday. I have totally lost myself in grief so bad that I will never be the same person I was.. don't realy care about anything so I sit with my little dog never leaving my house unless absolutely have to. Being sociable isn't in my life very often. But .i'm ok with this its my own little world I created for myself.