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Never got to grieve

My father was the first to go. Then during the next four years I was caregiver for my sister full time, around the clock. She was my best friend. Four years after my father died, my mother died. Four months later my sister died. Two years later another younger sister died. Then a month later my 2 living sisters abandoned me. When I was at my fathers funeral, I bursted out crying when the fire dept, came to honor him. Cause of my crying I was put down. While at my mom's bedside, I told not to cry. I stayed frozen in shock by how I was treated, I never shed a tear during her death, or her funeral. If I did show some grieving I was knocked down. This hurts me badly.

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Cyndi Zaweski

Sep 24, 2022

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I'm so sorry. You are carrying a lot, and grief is so complicated. When my dad died earlier this year, support groups were very cathartic. I hope this can help in some small way. https://www.lovealwaysproject.org/post/how-to-find-grief-bereavement-support-groups

Dinese Dam

Sep 25, 2022

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Thank you so much for the link. I do need support. Everyone tells me to move and forget about my sisters that abandoned me. It's not something I can do. They're my sisters and I can't just give up. I am 12 years older than one sister, and 17 years older than the other one. So all their lives, I haven't just been a sister, I have also been like a mother to them. I never told them no whenever I was asked for my help in something. When they were younger I took them everywhere with me. My youngest sister was over at my house all the time. When she was a year old, I became pregnant with my first baby. So my sister became very close friends with my daughter cause they were only a year and a half apart in ages. My sisters asked me to be maid of honor and I'm Godmother to all my nieces and nephews. I just don't get it. Why would they do that to me? How can I ever find peace in my life without my sisters and their children. I don't want to ever die without them in my life.